mental/emotional health, like physical health, requires maintenance. really, emotional health isnt separate from physical health. the human(ized) body is not only a substrate for the mind, but equivalent to it. a human(ized) mind doesnt exist without a human(ized) body and vice versa.
i have struggled with suicidal ideation since i was a child. i dont exactly believe in stable diagnostic labels, but at its root it seems to be a byproduct of my severe social anxiety. interacting with humans makes me feel panic and with no acceptable social outlet for that feeling i bottle it up until it makes me want to kill myself. this emotion has crept into my art a lot.