wrapping up my series on suicidal ideation, heres a brand new track! i recorded it in 2019 over a free beat from youtube. its a much more reflective/conceptual response to my suicidality. its less glib than i might die if i go to sleep, though still a bit sardonic. i think it reflects both a developing understanding of the way that the pressure to perform socially contributes to my anxiety (and therefore my suicidal ideation) as well as a resignation to the destabilizing effects of my cycles of emotions.
without further ado, EARTHQUAKE: